Lost Since 83
*Bred in 1983 *All things
*Very VERY RANDOM *TOO blunt at time...BiTE ME! *I don't care what people think...IM ME! ★ßℵ✈þђιllƴ✈ƝϚ★
Mondays Suck!
Im truly hatin life. My day literally was spent cryin myself bac n forth to sleep. No u cant help me out! No I dont wanna fuckin talk to nobody!! Everybody sucks from family on up. Im tired of hearin the overly used phrase “I Love You”! No u really dont! Nobody does n Im ssooo tired of hearin it! Im alone. Those who I thought I could always count on are no longer who I thought they were. Im so sad n I cant smoke/drink which would have been my normal excape. Im left to deal n it jus all hurts so bad. So bad at times I dont know what to do!! So bad at times I wonder will I make it through. How many more days will I endure this pain…until I finally say its enough? I keep tryna fight it and smile and laugh and joke. They wont understand until Im gone. Even then after I still wont matter…
360° Plan/Goal
So tomorrow is July 1, 2012 and I plan on revampin my life. Which mean seriously takin it bac n controlled. No more smokin or ANY kind, no more beer,no more liquor!!! That’s the main thing I might have a problem with. I seriously wanna better myself for the good though. Exercise exercise exercise I gotta be on it. I say 30lbs and Ill be good. I need to take off what I gained n what seemed like no time :( I’m ready though. No need to wait anymore. I need this change for me. I need it for my self-esteem. I’M READY! See y’all at the finish line :)
Sad
I need her right now. I jus want her to hold me tight while I cry my eyes out. I know shed make me feel safe n loved! :’(
Cannon Thought
Its crazy how so much shit between us would be diff if I had my license….my downfall caused it all…but would it be diff if I did?? I guess well never know….
